Pull The Trigger

Currently:

[] anorexic

[x] ednos

[] bulimic

[x] living off laxative/diet pills

[x] hungry

[] thirsty

[x] drinking something

[] Under 100lbs

[] fasting/starving myself

People:

[] have asked if I’m anorexic/bulimic

[x] have called me fat

[x] have said I’m skinny

[x] have said I’m ugly

[x] have said I’m pretty

[x] spread rumors about me

[x] forced me to eat

[x] say I eat too much

[x] wish I’d eat more

I wish:

[x] I was THIN

[x] I had a better body

[x] I didn’t have to eat

[x] I could control myself

[x] I was under 100 lbs

[x] I could avoid food

[x] I could hide what I am

[x] I wasn’t fat 

[x] I was pretty

I love:

[x] feeling hungry

[x] seeing a difference when fasting

[] shaking

[x] feeling airy

[x] losing weight

[] being anorexic/bulimic

[x] coffee

[x] green tea

[x] diet pills

[x] being able to turn down food

[x] feeling good about myself

Appearance:

[] I am shorter than 5’4

[x] I think I’m ugly

x[] I have scars

[x] I wish my hair was a different colour

[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color

[] I have a tattoo

[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance

[] I have/had braces

[] I wear glasses/contacts

[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free

[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger

[x] I have more than 2 piercings

[] I have piercings in places besides my ears

[] I have freckles

Family:

[x] I’ve sworn at my parents

[x] I’ve run away from home

[] I’ve been kicked out of the house

[x] My biological parents are together

[] I have a sibling less than one year old

[] I want to have kids someday

x[] I’ve had children

[] I’ve lost a child/baby

[] I can’t have children

Relationships:

[] I’m single

[x] I’m in a relationship

[] I’m engaged

[] I’m married

[] I’ve gone on a blind date

[] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper

[] I miss someone right now

[x] I have a fear of abandonment

[] I’ve cheated in a relationship

[] I’ve gotten divorced

[] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back

[] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t

[] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did

[] I’ve kept something from a past relationship

[x] I’ve been ‘the other woman’

Sexuality:

[x] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex 

[] I’ve had a crush on a teacher

[x] I am a cuddler

[] I’ve kissed in the rain

[x] I’ve hugged a stranger

[] I have kissed a stranger

Bad Times:

x[] I’ve consumed alcohol

[] I regularly drink

[] I can’t swallow pills

[] I can swallow numerous pills at a time without water

[x] I have been diagnosed with depression

[x] I shut others out when I’m upset

[] I take anti-depressants

[x] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have ednos

[] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it

[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose

[] I’ve woken up crying

[x] I’ve fallen asleep crying

[x] I’ve lost weight

[x] I’ve gained weight

[x] My weight holds me back

[x] Weight consumes me

[] I’m at my thinnest

[x] I’m at my biggest

[x] I’ve lost weight and kept it off

[x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back

[x] My weight affects my mood

[x] I weigh myself daily

[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me

[] I hate compliments

[x] I want to tell people to “stop lying” when they compliment me

[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size

[x] I feel happy when I’m hungry

[x] I get depressed after I eat

[x] I’ve skipped a meal

[x] I’ve thrown food away

[x] I’ve spit food out

[x] I’ve fasted

[x] I’ve taken diet pills

[x] I’ve used laxatives

[x] I’ve purged

[x] I exercise

[] I exercise so I can eat

[x] I work out secretly

[x] I work out daily

[] I’ve fainted from exhaustion

I’ve done:

[x] Weed

[x] Cigarettes

x[] Alcohol

[x] Caffeine pills

[x] Diet pills

[x] Pain killers

[x] Sleeping pills

[] Anti-depressants

[] Mood stabilizers

[] Anti-psychotics

[] Benzos

[x] Ecstacy

[] LSD

[x] Mushrooms

[] Speed

[x] Cocaine

[] Other

Habits:

[x] I keep my eating habits a secret 

[x] I look at thinspo

[x] I count calories 

[x] I’ve had negative intake days

[x] I avoid food

[x] I hate food

[x] I love food

[x] I want to be this way 

[x] I don’t want to be like this

[x] I wish I could have more control

[x] losing weight is my top priority

[] I am in treatment

[x] I’m doing this for me

[] I’m doing this for someone